Why Geek Girl Goddess?

For a business name it sounds derogatory, ageist, and sexist. I could just as easily have said writing woman of wonder, or fabulous female fantasist but that’s not quite what I wanted. I wanted to take the labels assigned to me by society and choose which ones I liked then combine them into something new I could share.

But why?

Because of all the labels I’ve heard there’s one that stuck, one I believed, one that held my back with an invisible chain of self-loathing…4F… a Fat Frumpy Flawed Failure.

Traditionally it’s a medical throw away, something doctors label Fair Fat Females over Forty for reasons I won’t get into. I changed it to my version because I’ve felt like a 4F since I was in my teens. Mind you, back then I figured if I smiled, deprived myself of food, and pretended everything was fine that eventually everyone would accept me for the wonderful person I was and stop blaming me for whatever is wrong in their lives.

So I chose three labels.

I’m a geek because I’ve always been something of an outsider more concerned with knowledge and experience rather than being cool and accepted. I was also very socially awkward, painfully so on many levels. I never feel more accepted than when I’m with other geeks.

I’m a Girl. Because…well… I just am. I embrace all incarnations of gender and sexuality but I recall vividly that being a girl was not acceptable when boys were around and being a girl was painfully mean when the Mean Girls were in charge. ( More on Mean Girls in another post.)

I’m a Goddess because as I’ve embraced being a girl and rejected any insult that comes with being a girl I found I could be the role model I sought. I found it in Girl Scouts, I found it in Wicca, (even though I no longer practice,) I found it in Art, and I found it in Writing. (More on all those topics in future posts.)

So I went for Geek Girl Goddess because the three together describe me quite nicely thank you.

So why make it a business?

Why the hell not?

Image is by Arthur Rackham, an illustration he did for the Goblin Market by Christina Rossetti. It reminds me of all the distractions and creative things that pull me to and fro.